Friday, October 05, 2012
Tuesday, October 02, 2012
The avoidance to tackle our insecurities merely aggravates the sufferings. The insecurities are the baggage that we carry from our past. We cling to our anxieties of yesterdays like hard-won trophies and never dare to trade them for the bounties that tomorrows may offer. The deadliest of the anxieties is the fear of losing the love and approval of loved ones. You give the key of your sanguinity and happiness to others. A viscous circle starts. You want approval of your achievements from others and if it is not granted, the motivation to do your best is lost. "The locus of control of your behavior should firmly be within yourself." Do not make your life a ceaseless struggle for getting the nod of approval that had remained elusive and would remain elusive forever. Endeavor to realize your own potential; reward yourself for your achievements, pamper yourself with treats and cherish your talents and uniqueness. You are the artist and your life is a canvas; sketch the most beautiful picture that truly reflects you; this will be the ultimate gift you would give it to yourself. If someone does not have the eye to appreciate its beauty that's not your problem.
Posted by Masood Ahmed at 1:15 AM
Monday, September 24, 2012
Why have I shunned success for so long? Why am I afraid of success? Is it because success may expose me that I am really not worthy of it? Is it because I am used to "my not so ideal way of living"? Is it because success would put me under uncertain future? Whatever the reason or may be every reason that I have just given has some truth in it; the situation that prevails now is unsustainable. I have to decide do I really want to be successful or stop striving for what I desire half-heartedly. The half-hearted approach gives me good enough position but saps my energy big time. I have wasted many precious years of my life in trivial activities. I could have achieved far greater positions had I not doubted myself and my ability to achieve greater heights. What was my biggest failure? What was my biggest nemesis? It was pandering to my desires. Now I have to change myself. I have to really focus. I know I can do this. I have to just do it.
Posted by Masood Ahmed at 11:12 PM
Thursday, June 14, 2012
bahar aai aur aa kay chali bhi gai
yeh kesi rut thi kay phool khilay bhi nahin
udaas chehron pay ik tabassum ki kali khil na saki
gham say nidhaal shikista badan be jaan hi rahay
rooh taaza hawa ko sisakti rahi
yeh kaisi bahar thi jo aa kay chali bhi gai
kiya mosam e khof hota hai itna hi taweel
kya is mosam main jaanain ho jati hain salb
kiya pazzmurdgi ki mot hoti nahin kabhi
kiya ghunche ho ja t e hain khab o khayal
woh jo maseeha key muntazir thay ab faryaad kartai hain
hamain mazi ki fazaun main rehnay do
jisay tum bahar kehtay ho yeh fasl e khardar hai
khizan ka mosam hi sahi jahan ummed e bahar to hai
Posted by Masood Ahmed at 2:19 PM
Thursday, March 15, 2012
I am writing this letter to let you know that I love you very much. I know that you may sometimes feel overwhelmed by the tasks that you have to do however if you take each task separately and keep doing that I am 100% sure that you will be able to feel better.
Posted by Masood Ahmed at 7:46 PM
Somewhere I have lost the key that used to open the heavenly doors of the sky. Those doors that let me enter into the universe of floating galaxies and dancing nebulae, where I used to marvel at the immensity of the space and expanding edges of the universe. Where I have lost the key I don't know!
Posted by Masood Ahmed at 7:45 PM
What is this pain that keeps coming, the pain of not getting enough love. Why this insecurity, why this convulsion of heart? I don't want to do anything with you. I don't want to hear the words that you love me, care for me, what childish words and I am grown up. Have I grown up. I don't think so. The child in me does feel abandoned, loveless and betrayed. The sanctuary, the abode, my hearth where one feels warmth and security was tormented. The fear, anxiety, loss, it has been a long journey. Why does it happen to me? Complex...it was difficult. Now, how much it is easier to always remain the slave of your misfortunes and keep getting the reassurance that world understands and loves you. Oh grow up man!
Posted by Masood Ahmed at 7:44 PM
It has been a wonderful journey. So many things that I had thought have come out to be true. One of them was that life is in living not in thinking. No sorry and I cannot tie the key to my sanity to your mood swings. I love life and life loves me. Here at this moment if I am sitting it is because I had said no to many of the opportunities in life that could have taken me to the destinations in which I was not interested. But then I was not able to control everything, who else has been able to control. So the vagaries of life have brought me to this juncture. If this is so why not just abandon the futile effort to control the future. I don't know what the answer. But what I do know is that life is the combination of happy and sad moments but the most interesting point is that both these moments can be present at the same moment. Each moment is a happy as well as a sad moment. It all depends upon you what you pick. When I say what you pick it means consciously we have to decide what to pick. The picking moment must be deliberate. The power to discern between the choice and compulsion is critical.
Posted by Masood Ahmed at 7:39 PM
From the blog I have been absent since last one year. As I saw my last post was in February 2011. Where the year has gone or has it become part of me. If I try to find the year inside me I have to look for happiness, pain, achievements, and losses. In the whirlwind that life is who has the time to reflect back on the happenings of past or of the last year to be specific. But not doing so would further add up to the feeling of aimless drift in which I find myself now. It may not be the case entirely because our inner compass keeps guiding us about the waywardness of our movements from the destination but taking a stock is a must so that we can achieve focus. Writing the blog keeps me on track on daily basis. February 2011, March 2011, April 2011, May 2011, June 2011, July 2011, August 2011, September 2011-January 2011. For last few months I have gone through some of the experiences in life that have made me realize many realities of life and told me that what's important in life what relationships are most important and who should matter and what things should not matter. I have come across many ups and downs. I feel tired but not lost.
Posted by Masood Ahmed at 7:26 PM
I was to attend the a party but I found that my sandal hook is broken and when I walk the strap comes out. It was night and off day so i couldn't find any cobbler. As I was going inside to attend the function the strap of the shoe again came out and I had to tighten it. I was feeling awkward to go with loose strap inside the party so I decided to give another try to find a cobbler to mend it. I found instead a tyre puncture shop open and I went there and asked the person if he could help me. He fixed my shoe with his tools and I comfortably when to the party.
Posted by Masood Ahmed at 7:22 PM
What I have got very few have. I have lived my life in a way where I have been able to develop opportunities out of nothing. I have been able to survive and thrive among various competitors. I have taken big risks, dealt with difficult people, tried to create a niche for my self, learn languages and have the confidence to love myself. I don't bother about those who don't care about my feelings.
Posted by Masood Ahmed at 7:20 PM
What I should say other than this that despite my efforts and struggles I have not been able to achieve what I really intended to achieve. What I really intend to achive my heart has just asked? I don't know the answer but what I know is that I intended to achieve a lot. Now my heart has just asked that when you dont know what you actually intended to achieve how could you say that you haven't achieve what you intended to achieve. A voice just came in no it is not exactly the case that I havent achieved but it is that I could have achieved more.
Posted by Masood Ahmed at 7:17 PM
Monday, February 20, 2012
The turmoil, agitation and restlessness in the soul tell that we do not belong to the present. We have left some part of our soul in the past and our present is searching for the lost other. When we try to reach for our other half in the past it seems that past has also moved on without leaving any trace. Our past is kept alive only in our memory and we keep searching for it with open eyes. The problem is that as we kept living in the past we miss out so much in the present. New sunrises, changing color of skies, smiles of friends, and giggling of children. Despite our desire to be frozen in the past we cannot live there. Once we realize that past is dead never to be resurrected and move on our soul finds peace. Bury the past and move on.
Posted by Masood Ahmed at 7:06 PM
Monday, February 21, 2011
Sometimes it felt that we have left behind ourselves so far that it is not worth an attempt to look back to find ourselves. The fear is that we would not be able to find a trace of our lost self and the desolate empty road would make our journey more depressing than it already is. The fear that time has constructed an impenetrable wall between the self that we lost and the hollow self we now possess stops us to try to search for our real being. The fear has stopped me to write because in my heart I know I can find myself through writing. Writing would lead me to trace my self that I had lost in the past. Writings would lead me to future where I will be able to find myself that I lost in the past. Past and future are meaningless if we know that our present is full and we are in equilibrium.
Posted by Masood Ahmed at 2:57 PM