I want to be with me.

Do me a favor, just leave me alone
to breath fresh air in a world of my own

Let me dwell in the silence of my heart
Where time doesn't exist and I am not apart

My soul is wounded, it needs a healing touch
Few quite moments,I am not asking for much

O desert, O river do attend my call
rocks,lakes,and sea I miss you all

Inevitable Change.

Why am I pulled by the thoughts of past whenever I go to sleep? Why is it so that my past never stops following me? Why do I keep thinking about the cracks that existed in some of my important relationships? Why can't I overcome this? Losses, losses, losses when will the flow of losses cease? Why am I the slave of my impulses? Why I cannot rein my self? Why I keep always thinking that wrongs have been done to me? Why, why, why, why, why, why?????? Oh!! I feel overwhelmed but should I behave like this? No, and I know I shouldn't. I know all the answers but I don't want to admit it. All of my sharp edges have been exposed. The big task ahead. So much to do. I have to do. I will have to do. Oh, my world is changing. I have to accept it. Life is changing. I have led myself too far away, I have to find the road towards my destination. I know what to do. I will prevail. I will have to, I have no other choice. I shall return.

Milton Friedman and teaching.

Today I watched the lectures, Q&A sessions and interviews of Milton Friedman on Youtube. If I say I was impressed by his knowledge, power of arguments and control it would be an understatement as Friedman was no ordinary person but one of the most influential economists of all times, proponent of free market economy, defender of capitalism as a necessary (not sufficient) system for development. He was lauded by many as a remarkable teacher and when I heard this I felt very good that being a teacher was not considered any less qualification than say economist. I know that teaching is a noble profession but through out my career as a teacher I have been asked pinching questions why I chose to become a teacher (thanks those who were asking these questions didn't question my volition for teaching profession) when I could otherwise had gone to join any MNC. Here I see the praise for Friedman as teacher and feel sky is the limit. What pulls me towards teaching is a continuous exchange of ideas in classrooms between students and teacher. What I like best is the interaction with hundreds of new students every year and making connection with them on the basis of knowledge. Understanding of each student to a level where he or she can understand the current theory and then challenge it in a way where I can see the student is applying his or her thinking skills. I try to keep it simple. When I say simple it means I want to communicate the crux of the theory in as simple way as possible and when theory is understood I try to give examples from the daily life or better I ask students to give examples from their own experiences. Even a joke is not out of the point if it helps in understanding the idea. Sometimes I start with examples and then give theory later on. The objective is to talk, communicate and reach to the students in a language that they understand. Teaching is intertwined with art of communication and at the heart of communication lies understanding of the audience and you cannot understand them until you get out of your own insecurities and you can get out of your own insecurities only if you know truly what you are talking about. Knowledge is power and it makes you humble as you know that being humble doesn't mean being weak and on the contrary being bullish or aggressive means something is lacking that you want to hide in the posture of being intimidating. If you can listen to the questions patiently that means you are giving your audience respect and you know you are confident to give the answer even sometimes the right answer may be " I don't know". I never heard Friedman saying " I don't know" ( he might have said it, but the videos I watched in that he never said" but what I heard was always a confident, in depth and passionate answer.

Self Talk..

Ok, I know it has been a challenging and difficult time you are spending now days. So what!! It has to be in this way. After all you have enjoyed the luxury of following your dreams. So why blame your failures on those who have not been understanding towards you. Stop acting like a child. You know this is not a mature way to deal with the challenges you face, to sort out the mess you create. Why do you ask so much from those who love you? Don't put them in such a situation lest they start doubting your ability to tackle problems. This is life. Don't think that life was ever meant to be straightforward and predictable. It doesn't work this way. Take charge, be responsible and act.Hey Man!!! you know you have all the resources to stun the world with your success. Don't shy away from it!!